I decided not to go to the event I had planned on going to today, but
even when I was considering going, I had decided that I was too sick to
take Bayne with me. Too sick? How can you be too sick to take a SERVICE
DOG with you? Isn't that what they are for? Let me explain what it's
like to take a service dog with you everywhere you go, especially for
those people who think "You're so LUCKY that you get to take your dog
everywhere with you". It's not easy, it takes a lot of work and a lot of
energy, it's not a relaxing walk in the park.
Before you leave
the house you have to make sure you have everything you need for him.
Treats, poop bags, water supply, water bowl, mat, boots, etc. You brush
him out to get rid of all the loose hair so he doesn't drop it
everywhere. Spray him with deodorizing spray to ensure he doesn't "smell
like a dog", wait 5 minutes, then brush that out. Get him in his gear
and make sure it fits right and is clean and professional looking, no
dirty spots or hair all over it. Spot clean if needed. Get him and all
his gear loaded into the car.
Once you get to where you are
going...having twins myself, I can honestly say that it's like taking 2
year old twins out with you by yourself. Not that the dog acts like a 2
year old, but you are hyper vigilant of everything going on around you
like you would be with 2 small children. A car driving by may see you
but they may not see your dog, so you are constantly aware of where he
is in relation to vehicles passing by, the same goes for shopping carts
in a store. You are aware of where your dog is and what he is doing
every single second. Not only do you have eyes on the back of your head,
but also on both sides and the top of your head, too.
You get
stared at, pointed at, you hear the comments everyone makes about you
being blind, or comments so exasperating that you can't help but roll
your eyes or grimace in disgust. You're constantly scanning for
"threats" to your dog....people trying to walk up and pet him without
asking, kids trying to run up and pull his tail, people talking to him
or calling out to him, barking at him, offering him food, etc. One eye
on your dog, one eye on everything and everyone around you, all while
trying to do what you need to do, get your shopping done, drive the
electric scooter without running over anyone or into anything.
Constantly making sure your dog is comfortable and safe. Making sure
he's hydrated and doesn't need a potty break. That he's not walking on
hot concrete, laying on a floor that's too cold, walking through
something dirty or dangerous, making sure you are giving him enough room
to make turns or that he has enough room to walk next to you without
running him into items or blocking the whole aisle or walkway. Watching
for people who are afraid of dogs, so that you can turn around and go
the other way to give them space. Warning people before you walk up
behind them with your large dog so that they aren't startled when they
glance over their shoulder and see this "beast" walking behind them.
Apologizing when you DO startle someone. Fielding questions from curious
people, smiling and saying thank you to the people who compliment your
dog, correcting those who say he's wearing a muzzle, blocking those who
are heading towards your dog with their arm stretched out ready to pet
him, explaining that he can't be pet because he's working, praising your
dog for doing such a good job of ignoring people, food, etc.
You
are constantly 100% aware of EVERYTHING going on around you, you have
to be. There's no zoning out. You can't spend 2 minutes reading a label.
You read 2 words, you check your dog, you scan your surroundings, you
read 2 more words, you check again, you read 2 more words, you have to
stop to answer more questions or smile and thank someone. You're on
guard, on alert, always scanning, always making sure your dog is doing
what he's supposed to be doing. You are in the spotlight and you have to
be "ON" every single second you are out. It's never ending. Just like
shopping with 2 year old twins.

I'm not complaining at all.
Having him with me so that he can help me when I need it is definitely
worth all the extra time and energy he takes, but there is a point when a
disabled person just may not HAVE that extra energy to put into it.
That's where I'm at right now after my hospital stay. Until now, I never
realized exactly how much work goes into taking him out with me, but
just the THOUGHT of having to expend that much energy today makes me
exhausted. It does make me thankful that I have had enough energy to do
it all the other days and I can't wait until I have it again. In one
sense, I guess you can say we are "lucky" to get to take our dog with us
everywhere, but it's honestly not as easy and "fun" as it seems.
Nothing about having a disability is easy or fun, not even taking our
best friend/medical equipment everywhere with us.